Today, we live in a Godless generation. I mean sure we dangle our bibles around like a pretty luxury accessory because it looks good. We also rely on God and his faithfulness but it’s hard for us to give him the same loyalty we desire. No judgement here because I am pretty far from perfect myself. That is actually why I decided to write this post. I have found time to be super committed to other things but there has been a drastic decline in my service to God. You see this is supposed to be a very personal and intimate relationship, probably the deepest kind of “closeness” I’ll ever experience. Far beyond the intimacy of husband and wife lies the intimacy we experience with our heavenly father. The catch is that in order for us to know someone, we must actually make the effort to spend intentional time with them. Intentional like the way we wake up and automatically scroll through our social media feeds, intentional like posting just the right picture on Instagram to fish for validation, or intentional like when we go out of our way to be seen by our crush at a special event because we hope that he notices. Yes, THAT INTENTIONAL. It’s the kind of intention we need to read our word daily, have secret conversations with Jesus about the deepest and darkest things in our lives, or to even stay in right relationship with him.
I wrote a post a while ago that rings so vibrant in my heart. I stated that “our commitment to God is just as important as our commitment to the things that he gave us. We have become a generation who pimps God for what he gives and we forget altogether who he’s been to us when we needed him the most. We don’t want people to use us but we use him daily. It’s crazy how our faith in him is predicated on our need of him and not just because he’s super dope and shockingly loyal to those who have been disloyal to him. Never forget. You’ll need him someday”. When I wrote this it was written out of personal conviction. God had been nothing but faithful to me, however, I had slowly start to let up on my commitment to him. Just a year prior I had been given a horrible cancer diagnosis and God healed me completely. During the process I was highly focused and exuberantly passionate about the God I knew could save my life. Months later that zeal thwarted. It felt like I had hit a glass ceiling. A lot of us blame our lack of commitment to God on a change of events in our lives, people, or things, but this my dear has everything to do with YOU. No matter how much changes in our lives we are the ones that make the conscious decision to either commit fully to God or to commit to other things.
In this season renewal of a greater commitment to God is something I yearn deeply. It is something I crave like food after severe starvation from wandering in the wilderness. Like David my soul thirsts for God in a dry land where no water is (Psalms 63:1). When you spend time away from someone who is a part of you, it should bother you. Truth is as human beings we seek connection, we all want love, and we desire loyalty. It’s crazy how our flesh often craves the things we aren’t willing to commit to ourselves. I have decided that although this will be a daily fight, I will continue to fight. I want God to know that I love him just like I go out of my way to give my love to other things. I have to be completely honest, for a long time this blog name was given to me by God. I sat on it and for the past few months I haven’t been committed to blogging on this platform or my personal blog. I realize now more than ever that when I fail to give what God has given me, I am not the only one who suffers.
Other people can miss out because of your lack of commitment. There were so many women who had been inspired by this blog, encouraged, uplifted and I failed them. I failed God. My obedience is necessary for someone else’s deliverance. Whatever your call, please commit to it. Someone else’s life depends on it. In this season of pursuing a greater commitment to God this song has been ringing in my heart like calls from a persistent stalker (lol). I am sure there’s a reason I can’t let it go. My favorite part says “Whatever you want, whatever you ask, our lives are yours we gladly lay them in your hands, set revival free, in our surrendering, come start a fire and let it burn, we’re crying out til heaven fills the earth.”